Giving God some Glory

I haven't blogged for ages cos i'm having to trust God about something at the moment and it's best I don't talk about what that is so I can deal with it. (If you've read my last blog - you can see it's been going on for a while). I don't like having to keep stuff private for lots of reasons. Mostly though i just feel like i'm being false with people. I prefer to be open, so that people understand where i'm at and why, but it's not always the best option. A few people have been asking me why i'm being distant and if i'm ok - how do you say 'i'm just dealing with stuff' when you know they're gonna be concerned for you and worry you're distant and think they've offended you and so on. So you end up saying 'I'm fine - just tired and busy' Which isn't a lie so you don't feel guilty. Then I think of Esther and how she kept her nationality until the time was right and I think - well if it's good enough for her then I guess it's ok for me.

So i guess life's been a challenge for a while now - but y'know God is so good to us. When we need Him, He's able to provide us with something that just pulls us deeper and nearer.
I heard this song called Take all of me by Hillsong United the other day. I just listened to it and tears rolled down my face - in fact they do everytme i hear it. God knows just when i need to get closer to Him and how singing to Him helps me sense Him in a deep heart sense.

The chorus is:
I love you
All of my hope is in you
Jesus Christ take my life
Take all of me

The words and melody just capture something supernatural of the Holy Spirit for me at the moment - God's given it to me to help me release things to Him. It totaly brings my focus onto Him which lifts me from where I am in a natural sense.

Sorry guys - i'm not really expressing this very well. I just want to give God some glory for being such an awesome Father and always looking out for me.